Good Morning my Sweetest of Hearts!
I have to tell y'all a little truth about me...
sometimes, when times get tough, I get quiet.
I don't share,
I don't seek out others guidance,
I try to avoid talking about myself,
I hunker down & wait for the hell storm to be over.
Thus, all my non personal posts on the things I love, like Tsars & Tsarinas,
vintage cabinet cards & tintypes, Queen Victoria & John Brown,
vintage fashion & couture. I spend my days dreaming & thinking
about things I LOVE, that's my survival mechanism.
For the past two years, I've felt like I was walking a tightrope,
without the benefit of a net. Juggling knives without any gloves.
Everything about our home is UP in the AIR & UP side down...
the loan on our house is more then double the value of our home,
& still we wait. Wait for an answer, wait for a modification...
WAIT because we don't know what else to do!
I'll tell you what, I wish I looked this graceful as I walk my tightrope.
There is nothing pretty about me being unable to move,
not knowing if I should go right or left.
Analysis Paralysis...
the state of over analyzing a situation until your unable to move.
That's where we've lived for the past few years.
{these amazing photos are by Bob Elsdale, check them out...they'll make you smile}
But no more!!
We are going to be brave & shake the dust of this little town off our boots, headin out
towards new adventures. We have a job interview in Apache Junction, AZ
on Monday & if we get the job, we're GOIN!
Whatever made me think that if you waited long enough,
life would come knocking on your door & unfold
the answers of the universe to you??
I was delusional!
And if this situation doesn't turn out to be right for us, we will keep
searching until we find the perfect one & one morning
we will wake up to a new dawn...
filled with Hope & Joy & Love.
Is it Scary...YES! Am I slightly Terrified...YES!!!
But it wouldn't be BRAVE, if you weren't afraid.
So for right now, I'm working on being BRAVE.
XOXO
vintagesusie
8 comments:
As I write this, I can see the quote on your sidebar "Twenty years from now.......". I'm sure everything will come together.
Good Luck ~ Happy Destiny ~~
Marilyn in Missouri
I Hope the interview goes well. So many are in your situation and it's sad. You mentioned this a long time ago and I thought everything was okay. Goodness you have had to be so stressed out. Good luck (((((HUGS)))))
Hang in there susie girl! I'm really sorry for your financial woes, and I'm sorry you've been so blue. This ecomony has been so hard on so many good people!
I am glad you've found such a wonderful outlet which is your blog. The past posts have been wonderful and so fun to read! How you find all these wonderful photos for your blog and Pintrest ?! You must search for hours! Anyway, take care, xoxox-cindy
Good luck with the job interview, Susie. Am sending good thoughts your way, my friend. hugs, Sue
Susie, Susie. I am hoping for the very, very best for you!
thank you for all your support of me during this had time. It is getting better...most of the time!
Big hugs,
Suz
I totally understand the fear and also feeling stifled by it. I'm crossing all my available digits that things work out with the job!
Susie, I'm so sorry you are having to go through this time of uncertainty, and I know it must be frustrating and frightening. I hope and pray that your 'door' opens quickly so you can move forward.
Blessings to you.
You are braver thank you think!! I know it can be scary, I'v been there done that!! I survived and came out a stronger more centered person, one with a whole new set of priorities.
Take the time to enjoy every journey in your life, good or bad you can always learn something from it, something that will help you be stronger, something to help yourself and others.
Good luck, your in my prayers!!!
xpxp
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