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Tuesday, April 26, 2011

My Sweet Johnny has Gone Ahead...


My Sweet Johnny has gone ahead.
A piece of my heart is gone, my big brother Johnny passed away yesterday morning
& my heart is breaking.


Growing up he was always by my side, every childhood memory I have, has Johnny in it.


Standing next to me, his arm around me, walking with me to school,


watching over me, even when I wasn't looking.


I was rarely afraid as a child because I was never alone, I always had Johnny with me.


I was so very blessed to have found him.
He was so very strong & held on so long, waiting for me to find him.
He knew I would never have Peace without finding the missing Piece of my Heart.


I have a scene from 'Out of Africa' that has been playing over & over in my mind.

Karen: Do you remember how it was on safari? In the afternoons I would
send you ahead to look for a camp and you would wait for me.
Farah: So you can see the fire and come to this place.
Karen: Yes. Well, it will be like that. Only this time I will go ahead and wait for you.
Farah: It is far, this place where you are going?
Karen: Yes.
Farah: Then you must make this fire very big, so I can find you.

My Sweet Johnny has gone ahead to watch out for me & guide me home,
just like when we were children.
I miss him so much already.
Oh, how I wish I could see you fly!

XOXO
vintaesusie
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44 comments:

  1. AndreaApril 26, 2011 at 5:51 PM

    So sorry for your loss! My prayers and thoughts are with you!!

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  2. Sheila RumneyApril 26, 2011 at 5:54 PM

    My God give you comfort and strength during this time. You are in my prayers.

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  3. Lori @ Katies Rose Cottage DesignsApril 26, 2011 at 5:54 PM

    I am so very sorry for the loss of your
    brother ~
    My prayers are with you and your family ~

    hugs
    Lori

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  4. Blessed SerendipityApril 26, 2011 at 5:56 PM

    I am sorry for the pain you are feeling with the loss of your dear brother. I am sending love and my sympathy to you and of course prayers.

    hugs,
    Danielle

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  5. Screaming SardineApril 26, 2011 at 5:58 PM

    I'm so very very sorry. Please know that there are so many of us out here in blogland who send you our tender thoughts.

    Hugs,
    Tracy

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  6. SUSAN MARCHANDApril 26, 2011 at 6:02 PM

    Dearest Susie,
    My heart is full. I know how much your dear, sweet brother meant to you and what a difficult and emotional journey this past year has been. Be at peace in knowing that you found each other in time before he had to leave on his own journey to a better place. My prayers are with you, my friend.
    Love,
    Susan

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  7. nacherluverApril 26, 2011 at 6:13 PM

    Oh ouch. I am so sorry for your loss. Those pictures of you and your brother are absolutely priceless. You can see he was a good big brother and definitely looked out for you. Sounds like there was a lot of love between the two of you. Healing Hugs to you.

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  8. OmaLindasOldeBaggsandStuftShirtsApril 26, 2011 at 6:25 PM

    I am so sorry for your loss and know you are in pain....peace my friend, Linda

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  9. Anji JohnstonApril 26, 2011 at 6:33 PM

    Yes, he has gone ahead Susie, and he will be watching over you as he did as a child. He will be forever with yuo, no matter what. My prayers and love are with you. X

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  10. AliceApril 26, 2011 at 6:41 PM

    Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry that your dear brother has passed away. How blessed you both were to have been together during his last months.

    I'm sure he is now watching over you, just as before.

    Hugs to you.

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  11. peggy aplSEEDSApril 26, 2011 at 7:01 PM

    i'm so sorry to hear about your loss, but since i read your post of how you found him, i'm so glad that you did and had some time together. that is such a blessing. sending you a big hug
    peggy aplSEEDS

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  12. DebbyApril 26, 2011 at 7:25 PM

    I am so glad that you found your brother and that you could spend some time with him. You know he is in a better place and you will see him again. But it still hurts so bad and for that I am so sorry. (((((((HUGS)))))

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  13. JudyApril 26, 2011 at 7:32 PM

    I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. Look for the flame and he will be there.

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  14. Tins and TreasuresApril 26, 2011 at 7:43 PM

    My dear friend, Susie,
    I am so very sorry to read your news today. My heart is hurting for you. I will keep you and your whole family in my thoughts and prayers.

    Take care, ~Natalie

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  15. Sandy NavarroApril 26, 2011 at 8:41 PM

    Susie, I'm so sorry for your loss. How wonderful that you found your brother and he was once again a part of your life and knew how much you loved him. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

    Love,
    Sandy

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  16. Linda @ Itsy Bits And PiecesApril 26, 2011 at 9:19 PM

    Oh Susie...my thoughts are with you...I know your heart must be so sad. I am so glad you were able to find him and be with him...I know you touched many out here to reach out to their families, too. My prayers are with you for comfort and peace...I know he WILL be waiting for you...XO

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  17. JaneApril 26, 2011 at 9:37 PM

    So sorry to hear of Johnny's passing, but so grateful you had time with him here at the End. How brightly will be burning the fire that will lead you to him and your other loved ones when you get Home!

    Blessings and Hugs,
    Jane

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  18. CameronApril 26, 2011 at 10:57 PM

    I am soooo sorry, Dear One....though he is no longer able to be touched physically, he will no doubt keep touching your heart and soul with his Love...

    All my sympathy....

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  19. hello gorgeousApril 27, 2011 at 12:07 AM

    hey gorgeous, he will ALWAYS be with you, wherever you are/whatever you do....take comfort in that feeling sweetie

    Hugs at this saddest of times

    hello gorgeous xxx

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  20. UnknownApril 27, 2011 at 3:44 AM

    I am truly sorry for your loss, hang in there girlie!

    BIG HUGS
    ~Leslie

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  21. JudyApril 27, 2011 at 4:24 AM

    Big huge virtual hugs. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

    la paix

    Judy

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  22. Rene FoustApril 27, 2011 at 5:52 AM

    So sorry for your loss words can't express. But I am so happy you found him.

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  23. Linda @ A La CarteApril 27, 2011 at 7:39 AM

    I know you are hurting but the joy in finding your big brother again and knowing he is waiting for you will never leave you. Take comfort in that and my thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  24. Lynn StevensApril 27, 2011 at 8:22 AM

    I'm so sorry for your loss, but what a wonderful thing, you found each other again before he left our world. hugs and prayers to you!
    Lynn

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  25. AngelaApril 27, 2011 at 8:54 AM

    So sorry...I can't imagine my life without my brother. But one of us will have to go on ahead, and reunions are so sweet.

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  26. The Vintage VagablondeApril 27, 2011 at 10:52 AM

    may peace b with u.....in ur time of sorrow! The pics are so sweet......hold tight and dear to your memories~Sheri

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  27. Sandi~A Cottage MuseApril 27, 2011 at 12:22 PM

    So, so sorry for your loss dear.
    Sending you hugs and keeping you in my prayers.

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  28. UnknownApril 27, 2011 at 12:32 PM

    I am sorry he is gone.
    I am happy that you found him.
    I rejoice that you will be reunited.

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  29. JamieApril 27, 2011 at 2:37 PM

    I am thinking of you Sweet Susie. I wish Gentle days ahead for you. We were in Disney World recently and I told my Mom the story of your Father. She thought it was wonderful. Love,Jamie

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  30. lordblessuApril 27, 2011 at 5:44 PM

    I feel so bad for you. You and Johnny are at peace.. you knowing he is watching over you and you knowing he is whole again.. You are in my prayers my friend.

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  31. bobbieApril 27, 2011 at 6:33 PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss ~~

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  32. DebbieApril 27, 2011 at 7:52 PM

    So sorry to hear of about your loss, you are in my prayers!!!

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  33. Lily's LaceApril 27, 2011 at 8:02 PM

    You just amaze me with your wisdom and your kindness and your ability to bring me to tears. Out of Africa, I mean really, did you think we wouldn't cry?! You need to write a book or something you know girl! This you can be sure Saint Peter will welcome you as I'm sure he did your brother. Sending you a big Texas hug! xoxoxox-cin

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  34. UnknownApril 28, 2011 at 4:31 AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Now he is indeed your angel watching over you. All you have to do is close your eyes and the memories will be there to hold you up. Prayers and hugs for you!

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  35. red.neck chicApril 28, 2011 at 10:51 AM

    Oh... my heart hurts with you.

    All of my love, prayers and more hugs are just for you.

    I'm so sorry...
    xoxoxo
    robelyn

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  36. CharleneApril 28, 2011 at 3:00 PM

    Wonderful post sweet girl!!!!!! We had our conversation of the phone... so we won't go there again. But, know you are loved & Johnny will indeed make the fire burn bright for you to see. And now you have a guardian angel in HEAVEN watching over you. LUCKY YOU! HUGS!
    Charlene Pearl

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  37. Elderberry DreamsApril 29, 2011 at 7:12 PM

    My heart hurts for you. I just found your blog, and I am so sorry. Please know you are in my prayers, and God hears every prayer lifted up to him. Take care of yourself.

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  38. SuzApril 30, 2011 at 10:05 PM

    Oh, Susie,
    I am full of so many feelings. My heart is just broken for you, I am so sorry...but I am so glad that you found him. I pray that someday they find a cure for Huntington's Disease. Please let us know if there is a way we could help by donating in Johnny's name...and I mean that!!!
    Thank you for sharing your story so openly. I grieve with you, my dear. It is a story of love triumphing...both of yours for each other. I send you my love and a big hug. You are a dear, good person. Someday that fire will burn bright and you will be together again.
    Suz

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  39. Anne LorysMay 2, 2011 at 2:17 PM

    I am so very sorry for your loss, what a special connection you and your sweet brother had.

    Much love and prayers,
    Anne

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  40. she dreams big!May 2, 2011 at 6:51 PM

    I'm so glad that he waited for you to find him again and is able to wait for you until you two are together in a much happier place. My sympathies, sweet Susie. May your memories sustain you during this difficult time.

    Big loving hug ~~ Connie

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  41. CindyMay 3, 2011 at 8:23 PM

    Susie, I was so saddened to read about the loss of your dear big brother, Johnny. What a tremendous loss - your brother and your friend. I can see the love between the two of you in the sweet childhood pictures you shared here. You're in my prayers.

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  42. The Divine Mrs MMay 5, 2011 at 1:50 PM

    I am so sorry to be sending my condolences this late. I haven't been faithfully reading blogs. I hope that each and everyday is getting easier and that peace is finding its way to your heart.

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  43. SueMay 8, 2011 at 6:03 PM

    Oh Susie, I am so far behind in my reading and I only just now am reading this post. I am so sorry to hear the news about your brother. I'm glad you found each other if only for a short time. Take comfort knowing that when you meet again in the afterlife, he will be healthy and well. Thinking of you right now, my friend.
    hugs, Sue

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  44. Carol Anne's BoutiqueJune 4, 2011 at 11:12 PM

    I am so deeply saddened to read about your dear brother's passing, there is nothing harder than losing the ones we love with all our heart. Your Sweet Johnny is watching over you Susie and he is always sending you his never ending love.

    I'm so sorry my friend, you're in my prayers.
    Love you,
    Carol Anne

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