Good Morning my Sweetest of Hearts!
I have to tell y'all a little truth about me...
sometimes, when times get tough, I get quiet.
I don't share,
I don't seek out others guidance,
I try to avoid talking about myself,
I hunker down & wait for the hell storm to be over.
Thus, all my non personal posts on the things I love, like Tsars & Tsarinas,
vintage cabinet cards & tintypes, Queen Victoria & John Brown,
vintage fashion & couture. I spend my days dreaming & thinking
about things I LOVE, that's my survival mechanism.
For the past two years, I've felt like I was walking a tightrope,
without the benefit of a net. Juggling knives without any gloves.
Everything about our home is UP in the AIR & UP side down...
the loan on our house is more then double the value of our home,
& still we wait. Wait for an answer, wait for a modification...
WAIT because we don't know what else to do!
I'll tell you what, I wish I looked this graceful as I walk my tightrope.
There is nothing pretty about me being unable to move,
not knowing if I should go right or left.
Analysis Paralysis...
the state of over analyzing a situation until your unable to move.
That's where we've lived for the past few years.
{these amazing photos are by Bob Elsdale, check them out...they'll make you smile}
But no more!!
We are going to be brave & shake the dust of this little town off our boots, headin out
towards new adventures. We have a job interview in Apache Junction, AZ
on Monday & if we get the job, we're GOIN!
Whatever made me think that if you waited long enough,
life would come knocking on your door & unfold
the answers of the universe to you??
I was delusional!
And if this situation doesn't turn out to be right for us, we will keep
searching until we find the perfect one & one morning
we will wake up to a new dawn...
filled with Hope & Joy & Love.
Is it Scary...YES! Am I slightly Terrified...YES!!!
But it wouldn't be BRAVE, if you weren't afraid.
So for right now, I'm working on being BRAVE.
XOXO
vintagesusie
